The quote of "I just can't take it anymore" is what I am hearing from people without hope, the other is a testimony full of renewed hope after an Into the Waters led meditation session done for a private group. As you read, evaluate if you lean more towards not being able to take it anymore or more towards, “This is the breakthrough I’ve needed for awhile.”

Regarding the first quote, a couple of days a week I talk with many, many people about what they are dealing with emotionally, mentally, and physically. It is a secular setting, not a ministry setting. I am not allowed to openly talk about God in this setting, which is very limiting and frustrating to me. There have been times however, where I broke protocol in gentle ways, out of intense burden. I simply share in some way, "I will be praying for you." It has always been well received. However for the 99.9% of distressing situations I hear about, I have to just do the best I can to offer words that comfort and acknowledge their pain. Would have to say of late, the words I offer are momentary, split seconds of kindness that don't take them beyond our call. Over the last 2 weeks have been deeply burdened by talking to a parent after their young child was raped, people whose sleeplessness is taking their sanity, anxiety and depression so severe people are going on disability, violent behaviors of family members seemingly possessed by "something" not of themselves, I am newly hearing and regularly hearing, "I just can't take it anymore." Their tone, their tears, their anger, their shaky voice says it all.

They need hope. And they are reaching out to medicine and doctors as they search.

What is hope exactly? Can it be trusted? In our dictionaries, hope is defined as "a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen". If that is as far as it goes, in my opinion, hope in and of itself as a concept is pretty shaky. Feelings are fleeting. We can have a feeling of hope to live a long life; but die at an early age. We can have a feeling of hope for a relationship to be "the one"; but end in rejection. Same for a hope for a good marriage; yet to end in divorce. We can have a feeling of hope for our children to prosper; but see them make bad decision after bad decision. We can hope for peace of mind; yet have crippling anxiety. Hope, in order for it to be true and life saving MUST have a cord of attachment to a source capable of manifesting the thing hoped for. But we don't see this qualification in our secular dictionaries. Yet, this is in fact how God defines hope in biblical dictionaries. It is defined as a literal cord of attachment that brings expectancy.

HOPE- Strongs 8615 tiqvâh, tik-vaw'; from H6960; (compare H6961) literally a cord (as an attachment); figuratively, expectancy:—expectation(-ted), hope, live, thing that I long for.

The word hope (tikvah) comes from the word kavah which means to wait by binding together, gathering for strength. The more cords are bound together, the stronger a rope is. The more weight it can hold, the more tension it can endure. These are pictures behind the strength that comes in waiting in God’s presence, attaching your hope to Him, having expectancy. Practical questions to examine would be:

1. ​Ask yourself, “Where are my cords of hope attached?” We tend to have hope in bank accounts, life plans, relationships, career paths, professional titles, weight and beauty, health, our children, a pill, ourselves. We tend to place hope in God giving us exactly what we asked for. God will challenge these areas. If we don’t get what we expect, often we lose heart and faith. But if we are honest, our cords were attached to a longing of what would bring joy and peace and satisfaction.
2. Ask yourself, “Have I waited with God, in times of prayer and meditation, in order to be strengthened... so that my cord of attachment (hope) has expectancy from Him?”

Reviewing our hope through these questions takes courage, but is worth it. It is very hard when our hopes do not come to pass. Some of you are in a lot of pain right now because hopes have been dashed. However, these can be opportunities to ground ourselves anew in hope that alone comes from God. He is the God of hope. And regarding hope, if we are willing to strengthen our cords to Him, He will resurrect hope within us. it is His divine design that we overflow with hope by the Power of the Holy Spirit.

NIV- Romans 15:13- May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

OVERFLOW OF HOPE>>>>>> Trusting God is key to being filled to joy and peace. Isn't that really the bottom-line request of all prayer... joy and peace? Your bank account can be overflowing; but if joy and peace elude you, what have you gained? You can be model skinny and have beauty that stops traffic; but if self scrutiny and continual dissatisfaction plague you, what have you gained? You can have a very successful career; but if loneliness and stress are your constant companions what is the point? We see the recent outcome of celebrities whose hope was in their children attending the best schools; but at what cost? The bottomline truth is that joy and peace come from the power of the Holy Spirit as you trust in God, not yourself or empty promises from the world.

So how is God-trust being developed in you? Are you experiencing an overflow of hope that comes from God? We all can be challenged by this question. It's a gentle reminder to invest in time before God's throne, to receive the joy and peace that He alone promises and delivers.

Here is a quote from someone who recently invested in lingering with God through an Into the Waters prayer and meditation session. See if you can see hope that came as a result.

"Thank you SO much for leading us on Thursday! It was a beautiful experience for me personally, and it was a breakthrough I have needed for awhile now. The revelation about (xxxxxx) was totally unexpected, but it continues to resonate so strongly with me. I have somehow put a limit on what God will do, and it definitely stems back to that season of my journey. I believe He will do those impossible, wonderful things for others, but not for me. I have dealt with this issue on so many levels and have felt peace along the way, but God not answering my prayers as I wanted at the time, has definitely affected how much I trust Him, I mean that deep, deep level of trust. Thank you for starting the process of tearing that false belief down in me and beginning another layer of healing."

God will tear down our false beliefs in order to bring another layer of healing and hope founded in His faithfulness, love, mercy, goodness, provision, etc. The power of the Holy Spirit deposits His life in those who trust! We are strengthened after waiting in His presence. Hope is renewed as our cord of attachment to God flows with new life from Him!

Do you need a fresh deposit of supernatural joy and peace, to overflow with hope from the Holy Spirit? In the Fall, Into the Waters will be holding some online group sessions on HOPE. These will be small groups of up to 10 at a time. Stay tuned for more announcements and sign up opportunities!

But for now meditate on the truth from Romans 15:13! Seed it into your heart by reading it in many translations. Reading it in many translations will do a couple of things.

1. It will help you process what is being stated as truth. (Repeat to yourself what God is saying. Example- “So God promises to fill me with joy and peace as I trust in Him. He promises that I will overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” If you do not understand any of it, ask God for revelation through Jesus.)
2. Multiple translations help translate the fullness of what is being stated.
3. It will challenge you to reflect on the promise. (Confess if you need to trust in Him more.)
4. It will help you memorize it and hide it as truth in your heart. (After reading through all of them, pick one translation and repeat it many times. After, close your eyes and see if you can restate it.)
5. It should encourage you to claim it and pray it for yourself and others! (Ask God for the hope He promises!)

NIV- Romans 15:13- May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

NLT- I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.

ESV- May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

Berean Study Bible- Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you believe in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

KJV- Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

GNT- May God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace by means of your faith in him, so that your hope will continue to grow by the power of the Holy Spirit.

BLESSINGS!
​ “Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭25:5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Today’s blog I guess is really a Vlog, a video blog. Contains an encouragement to linger longer with God through a testimony I share. It was during a difficult time in my life. At this time, the Lord was developing in me a spiritual discipline of spending extended time with Him for healing. My sharing is meant to encourage you to linger with Him and to be open to the Holy Spirit for supernatural comfort, help, and truth that sets you free! And a brief mention is made of tomorrow being Pentecost. Learn what it is and how relevant it is for believers 2k+ years later. Reflect and ask for the promise given on Pentecost. The video ends with me praying for you!

Also, below is an interactive prayer session to inspire you to linger longer. Pray through part of Psalm 116 and wait in the presence of God for renewal! Blessings! (Note-Two videos on this post caused a delay in play, so the video exercise has been moved. It will be uploaded as a separate video on 6/9/19. Thank you.)

Happy Mother's Day!  Mothers are given a very special purpose from God!  In this blog, you will discover a mother's purpose by how God spells the word "mother".  There is a deep meaning behind it.  It goes far beyond merely birthing a child or raising children to adulthood.  A true "mother" in God's eyes carries a lifetime of influence.  A mother as God intends, is a strong force of nature to bind us in love like no other!

This Mother's Day I feel God challenging me to reflect on my mother through His eyes.  So I've been reviewing and considering some of her ways, some of her emotions, and some of her words.  It's been enlightening to reflect on her through God's meaning of a mother. 

After doing an exercise of remembering and reflecting, I can feel God softening my heart.  There is a deeper understanding into her ways.  I can see why any family upset strikes her core and keeps her unsettled.  God's definition of a mother is making me stop and appreciate her overly expressive kisses and hugs, to see why she still wants to sit on the couch and hold my hand, that even though I am over 50, she still wants me to stop so she can just look at my face.  I roll my eyes in a lot of those moments and feel my adult self resisting.  There are times when I can feel "too zoned in on" by her deeply intuitive nature that never stops trying to tune to my heart, and make sure I am ok.  She worries a lot about my safety; and would be just fine if I only drove on days that were sunny and dry.  I have laughed out loud on the countless days she has said, "It's raining out maybe you shouldn't drive today." 

One thing is certain, about my mother and countless other mothers, "she" is a force of love sent from God holding us together in a way He designed.  I see this when my mother questions, "When is the last time you talked to your brother?  You should call him."  I see it when she says, "Give me another hug before you leave." This makes me think of many times I've heard people say, "Now that my mom is gone, the family does not stay in touch the way we used to.  She held us together."  That statement of "she held us together" gets to the very heart of God's definition and purpose of a mother. Reflect further by reading through and processing the exercise below.. 

Note- Even if you have not had a good experience with your mother, others could have represented God's motherly love to you.  And if you still have not had that experience, no matter how old you may be, ask God to experience a mother's love.  There is a section below to help you. 

Psalm 27:10- NLT Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close.

Meditation Exercise:  How God defines "mother"

Prayer Goal- 

• "God, open my eyes to see my mother through your design.  Birth in me a new appreciation and thankfulness so that I may honor her in my thoughts, actions, and words." 
• or "God, I've never known this type of love.  God, reveal a mother's love to me."
• or "God, let your meaning of a "mother" transform the way I am as a mother.  Help me be a mother reflecting the beauty of your design."

Definition-  God defines a mother according to purpose.  Her purpose is one who "'binds" the family together, holding them together individually and collectively through her love and actions.  

How can we know this is how God defines a "mother"?-  Before there were letters to spell words, there were pictographs.  Pictographs were symbols, which when their symbolic meanings were combined, revealed definitions.  Eventually each pictograph became the letters used today with the symbolic meanings staying with each letter.  We see this in how 2 symbols were combined to define the word "mother".  It is a definition of purpose. One symbol was an ox head, the other symbol was of water.  An ox head represents strength.  And water represents water.  So combined these pictographs mean "strong water."  In Ancient Hebrew you would read from right to left, and this is how it would be spelled in pictographic symbols- ​

So anytime you saw those pictographs combined, you would know they were referencing a "mother."*. Now how does strong water translate into a "mother'?

​In ancient times, the skins of animals were boiled in water which produced a sticky substance, much like glue. So strong water was a binding agent. And it was known in ancient times that a mother was a binding agent of the family. She held the family together with her love, her words, and her work. Her love, her words, and her work brought comfort, discipline, wisdom that "held" the family together.

WAYS TO REFLECT (Pick what is RELEVANT to you from 3 different scenarios):

1. Ask God to help bring to mind ways that your mother held you together with her love, words, and work. Reflect on times she shed tears in private because of her mother's heart for you.
   1. ​​Write down what comes to mind. Consider including some of these reflections in the card you give to her on Mother's day.
   2. Consider including this scripture in your card to her- "I thank my God every time I remember you."
2. If you have a bad relationship with your mother and have upset within about what you are remembering, take those feelings and thoughts to Jesus.
   1. Let God know what you are thinking and feeling that is upsetting. He knows the pain around abandonment, emotional negligence, harsh treatment, and broken promises.
   2. Be open to not suppressing tears. God heals through tears and longs to comfort.
      1. Psalm 126:5- Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.
      2. Psalm 34:18- The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
   3. Do you feel any bitterness of soul towards your mother? If so, bitterness is a root to be removed so that is does not defile other relationships.
      1. Ask Jesus to work in you to remove the bitterness- Hebrews 12:15 Be careful that no one falls short of the grace of God, so that no root of bitterness will spring up to cause trouble and defile many.
   4. Ask Jesus to help you release any insistence you have that she "pay" for her mistakes. to lead you on a path to forgive, to let go, and to trust in how He works out justice. (If the pain and trauma is very deep, this will be a process. But God will help you. He is the only One who can forgive, so it will be His life in you to help you release and let go. Your surrender to His ways is the first step.)
      1. Romans 12:19- Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord.
      2. Mark 11:25- And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.
3. If a mother yourself, reflect on ways you show your love, ways you speak to your children, ways you work to hold each one and the family together.
   1. ​Are you weary? Do you need His encouragement and strength? Do you need to hear whispers of affirmation from Him? Ask Him for it.
      1. Genesis 16:13a- She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: "You are the God who sees me..."
      2. Isaiah 40:11- He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.
   2. Do you feel badly about any words or actions that may have been too harsh or impatient? Ask God if you are too hard on yourself. Ask Him to show you mercy for any harsh ways. Ask Him to give you wisdom on how to handle new situations through His Spirit, strength, and love.
      • Matthew 11:29- Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
      • Romans 8:26- In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.

Praise God for His love and divine intervention! Be blessed in the transformative work of God to help you honor your mother, forgive where necessary, and be a mother purposed according to Holy definition! May the strong waters of His love bind you eternally through Christ!

​* Benner, Jeff. “Ancient Hebrew Lexicon, www.virtualbookworm.com, 2005.
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• Note- Over the last 2 weeks we have been covering the 4 critical needs of sheep to rest. The last 2 meditations covered 3 of the 4- relational upset, circumstantial fears, mental/emotional peace. The last one today is on satisfying hunger and thirst, the 4th critical need for rest. All 4 needs are tied to reliance upon God as good.

Today is GOOD FRIDAY. Is God is good? How does He define “good”? How do you define “good”? We use the word good in abstract form. “That was a good meal.” “What she said was good.” “I had a good time tonight.”

Our statements are opinion based and abstract. What you think is good may not be what another concludes as “good”.

God has a very concrete definition behind the word “good”. It is rooted in His character as Creator and divine provider. You will not see that explicitly said if you look up the word “good” in our dictionaries.

We can take a deeper look through some fascinating pictures that define the word "good" as God intends. To do so, we have to look deeper into language beginnings, to ancient language and ancient culture that originally used pictographs, also known as hieroglyphics, to write down their stories. When you look at the pictographs that were combined to communicate the word “good”, a mind-blowing definition is revealed! This is what you will meditate upon today. You will see God’s giving heart to supply all that is needed for an abundant life!

Know that pictographs eventually evolved into letters. And that the meanings of the pictographs stayed tied to the words they spelled. The example today is “good”. In ancient language of Hebrew, the word “good” is spelled with 3 letters, not 4 as in the English language. If we look at the pictograph that originated behind each letter, we discover the definition of good. Consider these 3 images in your mind’s eye:

A basket, made of clay.
A tent peg.
A tent.

Why these three images to spell the word good? Look closely at the purpose of each image.
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• A basket surrounds, contains, and stores things collected.
• Tent pegs are used to firmly secure a temporary covering.
• A tent is a temporary dwelling to move by season. In ancient times, God’s people lived in tents. Therefore, tents were homes, places of family.

Now let’s look at the activity behind each object’s purpose. In ancient times, God’s people went out daily with their baskets to fill them up with things they needed. They went back to their homes with all that they needed to satisfy their family. They were secured by bringing in all they needed and surrounded by God’s protection. When filled, secured, and satisfied at home, they functioned as God designed. When filled, secured, satisfied and functioning as designed, this is good.

Therefore, God’s meaning of good is:
Being surrounded and filled in such a way that you are secured and covered. Your dwelling is secure because you have a supply of all that is necessary for you to function as designed.

Is the word “good” as God intends starting to have a very concrete meaning to you? It is not opinion based. It is a state of being that is based upon a supply of all that is needed to function as God designed, which is all based upon His provision and supply.

Jesus promises that all of our needs will be satisfied according to His riches. He promises to surround us with His favor. He promises to fill us to overflowing with His Spirit and life. He promises to secure our souls and fill our temporary dwelling with Himself. He promises to give us our daily needs as we seek first His Kingdom. This is good and pleases God. With the Lord as your Good Shepherd, you are to lack no good thing.

Meditate:
Take time to view your life through the 3 images of the basket, the tent peg, and the tent.

• Consider what is surrounding you, filling you, securing you, and if you have all you need? It is easy to surround ourselves with things, fill ourselves with things, carry things, attempt to secure our own happiness, and bring things into our lives that are not good.
• Write down these questions and take time to write out your answer. What is surrounding me? What am I gathering? What am I letting in to me? What/who do I reach for to secure me? When all these things combine, am I functioning as whole? Am I satisfied, at peace, rested and filled in abundance? Do I feel empty in any area?
• Where you discover that you have areas that do not fit what is good, take these to Jesus. Tell him what is not good. Ask Him to redirect you in the path of His divine supply, to give you His strength to make better choices, and to trust where He leads.
• God offers to release your hands from the basket, so that you rest in His presence and promises.

Psalm 81:6- “I removed the burden from their shoulders;
their hands were set free from the basket.
Matthew 11:28- “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
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• Go to Jesus for burdens to be removed. Ask for a greater experience of His goodness.
• Ask to function as He designed.
• Ask for Him to show you where you need to let go of doing it all on your own and trusting Him to provide all that you need.
• Ask Him to fill you with divine supply of His Spirit. You are a clay basket to fill with God’s all-surpassing power. Your body is a tent, a temporary dwelling that is groaning and burdened. Therefore, you are to be secured by hope from Christ who is an anchor (tent peg) for your soul.

Hebrews 6:19-20a- We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever,

2 Corinthians 4:7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay (basket) to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.

• Your body is an earthly, temporary tent. Release any groaning and burden to Jesus. Admit to yourself, that while you are on earth, that you will never be fully satisfied because you long for your eternal house in Heaven.

2 Corinthians 5: 1-5 For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

• Thank him for his divine supply.

Philippians 4:19- And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.

• Praise Him as Good Shepherd. Ask Him to lead and guide you.
• Psalm 23:1- The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.

May you take time now for quiet in the presence of the Good Shepherd who laid down his life for you!

Drudgery. Ugh. How to get through it? The repetitive, the boring, the whiny, the weak, the difficult, the demeaning jobs. In these places, we look for ways of escape. I've been there lately, impatient about an assignment and wanting out.

The thing I want out of is a part-time position that not only wearies me; it challenges any and every part of my pride. It has been inexplicably hard at times to do a job that is "way beneath my pay level" so to speak. Me wording it in that way should give you a sense of my pride and resentment of the assignment. At times it has not bothered me; but mostly I didn't think it would last this long. I do a good job and am liked; but too often of late, I am offended and feeling impatient.

This week, first thing Tuesday morning, I was sitting at my desk stewing. I knew this was not a way to start the day, so I decided to look at Oswald Chambers My Utmost devotional for that day. I know if I need a "good talking to" so to speak, I can find it with Oswald Chamber's spiritual writings. He speaks directly, cuts me right to the quick. I love it. Sure enough, from the very first sentence of the devotional, I am convicted. But it feels good because I sense God's presence and know He is right there bringing my darkness into His light for spiritual transformation. I keep reading and the words become ever more convicting within.

"Drudgery is one of the finest tests to determine the genuineness of our character. Drudgery is work that is far removed from anything we think of as ideal work. It is the utterly hard, menial, tiresome, and dirty work. And when we experience it, our spirituality is instantly tested and we will know whether or not we are spiritually genuine. " - Oswald Chambers

Owwwweeeeee. Drudgery. As clear as day, there it is. I am rejecting what I perceive as menial, tiresome, and dirty work! With words so directly applicable to my current state of mind, suddenly the fog clears. It's crystal clear God is lasering in, joining me in my pity party, but only in order to shift my focus. I am to reflect on my spiritual genuineness. Direct hit. I said a quiet prayer asking for His mercy and power to serve genuinely, John 13:4-5,12-17. This type of prayer and reflecting took all but 3 minutes; but it turned my whole day around! And don't ya know that right after I got a call from a very unhappy woman who was short tempered, cold, aggressive, and at the same time sounded very defeated. How would I handle it?

By God's grace and freshly filling me with His power through that little 3 minute prayer and reflection, I found myself impervious to her ill nature and easily focused on the defeated part of her that I heard. I couldn't believe it in the moment. But was almost giddy within as I listened and rose above her difficult ways. I encouraged her that her frustration could and would be addressed and not to give up on getting some medical direction for a family member. She spewed some things; but praise God I didn't react. She didn't soften towards me despite my way towards her; but she agreed to let me elevate the situation. About 45 minutes later she called again; but this time she was in tears, sobbing deeply, and extremely apologetic. I could barely understand what she was saying through her tears. Her repentance moved me deeply , so much so that I felt tears well up in me. She was so remorseful! She just kept saying "I'm so sorry I was so mean. It's not right. I know better". Again, I was amazed knowing that God did something in her. He was helping her release pent up emotion, frustration, heart ache, loneliness, fear, etc. I "got it" and was able to stay with her in that moment and speak gently and help calm her down. Turns out she is terrified of what is going on with her family member and in a state of total dismay, feeling trapped, defeated, and very alone. She continued to profusely apologize for how aggressive and mean she was to the medical person who called her back and for how she was towards me. I thanked her and told her she was forgiven. I let her know she wasn't alone. I shared tears with her. I shared some of what I have experienced in helping a senior family member, reminding her again that she wasn't alone. I told her about local resources for social work help, a grief group at my church, and told her I would pray for her. I'm not sure what impact it had beyond her quieted countenance and "thank you"; but I know the impact it had on me. God rose up in me. His love and knowledge of that woman and her need for that morning was "my lowly assignment". He wanted me to be Him to her. And before that could happen, I needed a heart check. Praise God for his intervention in me so that I could be an offering of His grace and comfort to her!

This is the necessity of prayer that does a hard stop. It is a prayer that steals away for a moment (the difficult ones); and cries out for divine intervention and wisdom. He is near. He will give wisdom. He says, "Ask and it will be given to you..." But be open to his reply. Because in those moments He will show us some difficult things about our hearts. But if we do not avoid those moments, if we have eyes to see, the door is wide open to divine power and supernatural life and BLESSING! There was a supernatural joy that refreshed my heart and mind after those 2 conversations with a broken and weary woman.

I could have stewed in my own emotions, kicked and screamed within, resisted the day and had a really bad attitude. But instead, I chose to let God in, to let him search me, and to seek out His wisdom. His wisdom was served on a silver platter carrying words hard to swallow but covered with grace. I turned. The result was blessing and spiritual transformation in me, a temple of the Holy Spirit. You too, if you know Jesus as Lord, are a temple of the Holy Spirit. And you need the inspiration of God in your drudgery.

"The inspiration of God is required if drudgery is to shine with the light of God upon it. In some cases the way a person does a task makes that work sanctified and holy forever. It may be a very common everyday task, but after we have seen it done, it becomes different. When the Lord does something through us, He always transforms it. Our Lord takes our human flesh and transforms it, and now every believer’s body has become “the temple of the Holy Spirit” (1 Corinthians 6:19). " - Oswald Chambers , My Utmost

Break away and pray. He sees what is done in secret and will reward you. Give Jesus the thoughts of resentment about the day-to-day drudgery assigned to you. What is your drudgery? Unending piles of laundry, everyday referee of bickering children, an ill tempered spouse, unthankful bosses, smiles that betray, work that is "beneath" you? Let Him enter those moments. It's so transformative if you do! He is right there willing to help with the state of heart and mind if you ask. Accept the hard word He might give about what needs transformation in you to get through the drudgery. Surrender. Go back in with His power humbly serving at the feet of another. Divine transformation and untold blessings await your heart!

John 13:14 If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. 15 For I have given you an example, that you also should do just as I have done to you. 16 Truly, truly, I say to you, a servant is not greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. 17 If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them.

Yesterday, I asked a question on a public forum, "What is a tormenting thought you want God to take away?" I've gotten two answers that are heaven and earth apart. Both answers are from men. This was the first one I got-

Man #1- "Here is one of the damages wrought by religion. A life long dependence upon a placebo parent phantasm. Atheists, they put their grown up pants on every day, and sort out their own issues. Atheism, it requires strength and maturity. It may not be for you."

Here is the 2nd answer-
Man #2 -" I used to be tormented by the thought of going through life alone. I prayed and asked God to take this away from me. Instead, He sent me my wife. Turns out God knew what was best for me better than I did, and the years I spent single and celibate were setting me up to meet my wife and to love her... Now when I have difficulties in life, I ask God to help me see the purpose behind them. God is not a cosmological vending machine to pop a 25-cent prayer into and get whatever you want out of it. He's a real, living, thinking, feeling being with unlimited power, resources, and knowledge and a real, vested interest in our well-being..."

The 2nd half of his answer was giving an example of he and his wife taking their son to get his first shots. He recalls their little boy knowing they were holding him down so a strange man could poke a needle in him. His point is that their little boy did not understand what was happening to him, but as his daddy, he did. And that it is the same with God. He went on to say, "God's knowledge and wisdom far surpasses our own." And then he quoted the apostle Paul and affirmed his trust in God's knowledge. "The foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom. So I put my trust in His purpose and plan for me, even and perhaps especially when it causes me pain, because though it hurts me now, I know that this is nothing compared to the joy that is coming (such as meeting my wife)..."

Pretty radical in terms of the chasm separating the perspective of each man isn't it?

Before I got that first answer, I was meditating and praying through some verses in Psalm 32. And I see the radical difference of each man in those verses. Psalm 32 talks about a man who talks openly with God which it appears man #2 does. He admitted loneliness and trusts in God. It sounds like he knows Jesus pretty well based upon his references of Christ's foolishness referenced in 1 Corinthians 1:18-25. So my bet is that he also openly talks to God about big issues referenced like transgression, sin, and iniquity. Big and often intimidating words, but good news for those unafraid of God. The author of Psalm 32 uses those 3 words repeatedly in Psalm 32, the New King James Version. What are the differences? Let's explore them, the blessing that comes through them, and do a prayer exercise at the end.

According to biblical concordances, transgression is rooted in rebellion, sin is a crime or offense, and iniquity is a bent or warped nature (perverse, depraved). So to describe it to another, it would be in context to say, that each is born rebellious, so each commits offenses/crimes that are perverse and depraved. How in the world does God bless us as a result of these?

Wildly, the psalmist claims there is blessing for those! It's conditional of course. But radical none-the-less! So think of man #1 above. There is blessing awaiting him. Radical blessing! IF man #1 would see God as good, not as a fantasy made up in imagination. Please stop and pray for him to intersect with the love of God, to go in the way of blessing.

What kind of blessing? Blessing in biblical Hebrew terms has a literal picture of one kneeling down to offer an undeserved gift that brings joy, that satisfies the receiver. I have blogged about blessing God in this way a couple of times prior. But, in God's highest terms, blessing is His supernatural offering. He reaches down. He bends down and offers undeserved gifts that wholly satisfy in ways no other gift can. Man #2 wanted strength to endure loneliness and celibacy. Yet God knew better and sent him a gift of help in a wife, Genesis 2:18-25.

God is always wanting to send undeserved help. But far too often, we are like man #1. Maybe not in the same degree, but like him none-the-less. Maybe we are stubborn like the horse or mule referenced in Psalm 32. Maybe we steel ourselves, and talk to ourselves saying something along the lines of, "Today is another day, man up, be strong, you can do this." Or, "Don't be such a baby. Grow up. God has bigger issues and doesn't care about all your little problems. You screw up anyways, so why should He bother with you?" Or we ignore God's assist. We prefer to ignore the whispers. Assess yourself. What is your self-talk telling you? Is it your voice or God's? If it has any form of condemnation it is not from God. Is it a voice from your past? A disapproving parent? Yourself as a rebellious teenager? Pay attention to your self-talk. Does it push you to rely on self or God? We are not to carry burden alone. That takes us totally off the path of blessing.

The most radical blessing God can offer is forgiveness. Each time we talk to God we have opportunity to acknowledge our rebellion, our crimes of offense in thought and deed, and openly share our perverse and imperfect nature to God. All without rebuke, to receive mercy in our time of deep need! Psalm 32 promises that approaching God this way, without deceit, confessing our offenses brings supernatural assist in big ways. Great flood waters that destroy do not come near! There is a perpetual hiding place that preserves from trouble! There is a supernatural surrounding of song, songs of deliverance! He promises to instruct and teach the way to go, to guide you with his loving eye you! As you trust in God and not rebel against His guidance, mercy surrounds you! You are glad and rejoice! This is the blessing of those receiving undeserved forgiveness. You shout for joy, for you know that when God looks upon you, despite yourself, you are upright in heart because of Jesus!

Forgiveness is the center of all blessing from God. Forgiveness is lifting up, carrying away, taking the burden, bearing the cost. The only one who is strong enough to take away the twisted nature of the heart is Jesus. Contrary to man #1 who thinks he has to put on his grown up pants on and be strong and mature. Man #2 gets it, the foolishness of God is wiser than any man's wisdom. He has received the undeserved gift and approaches God not as a vending machine, but as a Holy and Sovereign good God who knows better than he does and trusts Him.

Who do you have more in common with today, man #1 or man #2? Take some time with God and unburden.

Below is a prayer of confession for followers of Christ. It will help you put to memory and pray through the differences of transgression, sin, and iniquity. It expounds on each word as it appears in verses 1 and 2 of Psalm 32 NKJV. Getting the definitions clear inside your heart and mind, will help you be able to talk about human nature to another. It will also help you work with God as you pray and confess, to position to receive the multitude of blessings and healing He promises! Blessings!

PRAYER EXERCISE (expound on definition): Read through Psalm 32 first.

• Blessed am I, because my transgression is forgiven. I am rebellious. On my own I do resist God's way. Thank you Lord for lifting up and carrying away the burden of my rebellion.
• My sin is covered! All my offenses, all of my faults are forgiven because of Jesus who has paid for my crimes against God and all others.
• God, you are no longer counting and recording a list of my iniquities. Despite wrestling daily with twisted and perverse thoughts or actions, when I come to you and unburden, I am blessed! You kneel down and give me gifts I do not deserve. You satisfy me.
• (Now, answer the question the two men answered. Is there a tormenting thought you want God to take away. He will help you. Unburden, bring it to him for help and forgiveness.)
• Lord, help me now. Bring to mind anything needing release and confession. Let me not keep silent. I want relief and your instruction.
• Wait with God in that prayer and give God time to reach in. Just repeat the name "Jesus" as you wait. Believe in the supernatural work He does in these moments.
• End by thanking God and believing songs of deliverance surround you as you go forward in your day.

Start 2019 positioning your soul in hope! Follow along in this 1 minute prayer inspired by Psalm 62:5-8. The background video comes from my visit to Glen Eyrie retreat center last year. Repeat the video to practice praying the scripture and to hide it in your heart. God is a refuge and fortress to all who call on Him! Note, follow me on Quora or follow the ministry on Facebook to pray through the 21 days of meditation. A Youtube channel is also being set up, link to follow soon.

So I asked God what he wanted me to share about calling on him as a mighty God. And he replied with one word “vanquish”.

That’s such a great word! It means to defeat thoroughly, overcome in battle, subdue completely. He is challenging us to come to Him boldly in prayer for His power to enter and defeat, overcome, subdue! So the question is what needs to be defeated in you? Where do you need victory? What are emotional waves that overwhelm you? Shame, self hatred, depression, anxiety, bitterness, addiction, loss?
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The thing that stops us from praying bold prayers is typically expressed in fear but it’s rooted in unbelief, and unbelief is the deathknell to bold prayer. In our fear, we say “God, don’t you care? But it’s our unbelief that fuels the question. And when that is true, our prayers are severely limited to the constraints of our belief in who God is. Is he really mighty God? And when unbelief is rooted in us, our prayers are weak. We’re not praying to God as he is, we’re praying through a self-limitation of our own mind. Jesus knows this and will use terrifying moments to bring our unbelief to surface. We have a choice in those moments to turn to Him and have honest conversation, or to stay distant and let doubt win and remain defeated.

There’s this account in the Bible, book of Mark chapter 4:35-41, where Jesus allows a fierce storm on the sea of Galilee to bring unbelief to the surface of his disciples. It’s an account meant as teaching moment for us on prayer. In their severe distress, thinking they are going to die, they wake Jesus up (who has been sleeping at the back of the boat during the storm) and say, “Teacher, don’t you care that we’re going to drown?” He gets up and rebukes the wind and quiets the waves with a word that immediately vanquishes the storm, “Quiet. Be still!” Then he turns to his disciples and says “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith ?”

They are absolutely terrified by Jesus’ display of power over the storm. And they say to one another “Who is this that even the wind and the waves obey him?” And that is a question we have to bring to God in prayer. “God, Who are you as MIGHTY GOD?” In prayer, we are to be challenged to reexamine the limits of our belief that doubts God’s power to quiet our storms within and without. So here are questions to ponder in praying to Jesus as MIGHTY GOD.
• Do you limit God due to your unbelief in HIM as MIGHTY GOD?
• What is terrifying or defeating you right now?
• Are you willing to bring him your doubts and fears and ask him for a greater revelation of who he is?
​(Let your answers inspire the language of your prayer to God.)

Now as we end, let’s pray together! This is a short prayer and you only need to repeat what is written and only if it’s truly an expression of your heart to JESUS. OK let’s go to prayer,

• “Jesus overcome all unbelief in me.”
• “Mighty God let me hear your word that stills the storm.”
• “Let me hear you saying to my heart and mind, ‘Quiet. Be still!’”
• “Conquer fear in me. Defeat unbelief in me. Overcome in me mighty God!”

Be blessed to receive the child that was born, the son that was given! Know Him as WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, MIGHTY GOD, EVERLASTING FATHER, PRINCE OF PEACE! He willingly bore ourburdens and now holds all authority to still the storm in you. Draw near and believe!